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Unit 7
Drug
Abuse
Passage A Agony from
Ecstasy
I hear a lot of people talking
about Ecstasy, calling it a fun, harmless drug.
All I can
think is,
I
grew
up
in
a
small,
rural
town
in
Pennsylvania.
It's
one
of
those
places
where
everyone
knows
your
name,
what
you
did,
what
you
ate
and
so
on.
I
was
a
straight-A
student and one
of the popular kids, liked by all the different
crowds. Drugs never played
a part in my
life. They were never a question - I was too
involved and focused on other
things.
I always dreamed of moving to New York
City to study acting and pursue a career in
theater.
My
dream
came
true
when
my
mom
brought
me
to
the
city
to
attend
acting
school. As you can
imagine, it was quite a change from home.
I was exposed to new people, new ideas
and a completely new way of life - a way of
life
that
exposed
me
to
drugs.
Most
of
the
people
that
I
met
in
the
acting
school
had
already been doing drugs for years. I
felt that by using drugs, I would become a part of
their world and it would deepen my
friendships with them to new levels. I tried pot,
even
a little cocaine, but it was
Ecstasy that changed my life forever.
I
remember the feeling I had the first time I did
Ecstasy: complete and utter bliss. I
could feel the pulse of the universe.
It was as if I had unlocked some sort of secret
world;
it was as if I'd found heaven.
And I wondered how anything that made you feel so
good
could possibly be bad.
As
time
went
by,
things
changed.
I
graduated,
and
began
to
use
drugs,
especially
Ecstasy, more frequently. As I did, I
actually started to look down on those who did
not. I
surrounded myself only with
those who did. I had gone from a girl who never
used drugs
to a woman who couldn't
imagine life without them.
In five months,
I went from a person living somewhat responsibly
while pursuing my
dream to a person who
didn't care about a thing - and the higher I got,
the deeper I sank
into a dark, lonely
place. When I did sleep, I had nightmares and the
shakes. I had pasty
skin, a throbbing
head and the beginnings of paranoia, but I ignored
it all, thinking it was
normal until
the night I thought I was dying.
On
this
night,
I
was
sitting
on
the
couch
with
my
friends,
watching
a
movie
and
feeling
normal
when
suddenly,
I
felt
as
if
I
needed
to
jump
out
of
my
skin.
Racing
thoughts, horrible images and illusions
crept through my mind. I thought I was seeing the
devil, and I repeatedly asked my
friends if I was dead. On top of all this, I felt
as if I was
having a heart attack. Somehow, I
managed to pick up the telephone and call my mom
in
the
middle
of
the
night,
telling
her
to
come
get
me.
She
did,
pulling
me
out
of
my
apartment the next
morning.
I didn't know who I was or
where I was as my mom drove me back to my family's
hospital in Pennsylvania. I spent most
of the drive curled up in the back seat while my
younger sister tried to keep me calm.
I spent the next 14 days in the
hospital in a state of extreme confusion. This is
what
Ecstasy
gave me -
but it
didn't
stop there. My
doctors
performed
a
scan
of my
brain.
I
couldn't believe my eyes when I saw the
results. The scan showed several dark marks on
the image of my brain, and my doctors
told me those were areas
- areas that
carry out
memory functions - where the
activity of my brain had been changed in some way.
Since I saw that scan, my life has been
an uphill crawl.
I hear people
say Ecstasy is a harmless, happy drug. There's
nothing happy about the
way
that
drug
chipped
away
at
my
life.
Ecstasy
took
my
strength,
my
motivation, my dreams, my
friends, my apartment, my money and most of all,
my sanity.
I worry about my future and
my health every day. I have many mountains ahead
of me,
but I plan to keep climbing
because I'm one of the lucky ones.
I've been given a second chance, and
that's not something that everyone gets.
摇头丸苦海无崖
我听到许多人谈论摇头丸,说它是一种奇妙无害的麻醉品。对
此,我只能暗自感叹,
要是他们知道就好了。
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我是在宾夕法尼亚的一个乡间小镇长大的。
在那个地方,
你叫什
么名字,
你是干什么的,
你吃的是什么,以及诸如此类的事儿别
人都了如指掌。那时,我是一个门门皆优的好学生,
是大家公认的一个乖孩子,
人人都喜欢我。
毒品与我的生活中根本不沾边,
从来也没去想过
--
我别的事情还忙不过来咧。
我一直梦想到纽约市去学表演,
然后从事舞台表演生涯。
后
来,
我妈带我到那座城市去
上表演艺术学校,实现了我的梦想。
你能想象得到,这与家里相比可是大不一样。
我接触到了许多新朋友,新观念,接触到了一种全新的生活方
式
--
这种生活方式也使我
开始接触到
了毒品。
我在艺术学校遇到的那些人多数都已经有多年的吸毒经历。
当时我觉得
通过吸毒我可以真正融入他们那个世界,
可以加
深我与他们的友情。
我试过大麻,
甚至还试
过一点可卡因,不过,永远改变了我的生活的是摇头丸。
p>
我还记得我第一次用摇头丸时的感觉:
浑身上下飘然若仙。
我甚至感受到了宇宙的脉搏,
宛如某种神奇世界的铁锁被我豁然开启,<
/p>
让我顿入天界一般。
我当时心想,
能够让
人感到如
此美妙的东西怎么可能不好呢?
随着时间的推移,
情况发生了变化。
我毕业后开始越来越频繁地吸用毒品,
尤其是摇头
丸。
我自己吸毒并开始看不起那些不吸毒的人。<
/p>
我成天与吸毒者为伍。
我已经从一个不沾毒
品的女孩变成了一个没有毒品就难以度日的女人。
仅五个月的时间,
我就从一个追求梦
想,
对生活还有些责任感的人,
变成了一个对一切
都无所谓的庸人。而且,我走得越远,我越发陷于黑暗孤寂的深渊。我一旦入睡,便会噩梦
连连,颤抖不已。我肤色如灰,头痛欲炸,精神也开始错乱起来。对此我全然没有理会,以
为这一切都是正常的,直到有一天夜晚我觉得我就要死了。
那天夜
晚,
我正和几个朋友坐在长沙发上看电影,
起初还感觉正常,<
/p>
可是突然我觉得仿
佛想要从自己的躯壳里蹦出来似的,
各种各样的念头、
恐怖无比的景象和扑朔离迷的幻影在
脑海里闪烁。
当时我觉得我撞见了魔鬼。
我不停地问朋友们
我是不是已经死了。
在发作的高
峰,我感觉我仿佛象心脏病发作
了一般。
半夜时候,我总算拿起了电话,拨通了我妈妈的号
码,
叫她赶紧来接我。第二天一早她来了,把我从公寓里拽了出来。
在我妈开车带我回宾夕法尼亚州我
们的家庭医院的时候,我迷迷糊糊,忘了自己是谁,
也不知道自己身在何处。
路上的大部分时间,
我都卷曲着身子,倒在汽车的后座上,而我妹
妹一直在尽力使我安静下来。
在一种极度的迷茫状态之中,我在病房里度过了
14
天。这就是摇头丸给我带来的结果
——
还不止如此。医生们给我的大脑作了一次扫描检查。当我看到检查结果的时候,我简直
不敢相信自己的眼睛。
扫描显示我的脑电图上呈现好几处黑斑。
医生们告诉我说,
这些黑斑
出现的区域正是大脑执
行记忆功能的区域,表明我的大脑活动已经产生了某种病变。
自打我看到那张脑电图之后,我的生活就如爬坡上坎似的变得
艰难起来。
我总是听到人们说,
摇头丸是一种令人愉悦的无害麻醉品。
然而当这种
”
无害
”
< br>之药一点
一点地侵蚀了我的生命的时候,
哪里还有愉悦。
摇头丸夺走了我的体力,我的追求,我的梦
想,我的朋友,我的公寓,我的钱财,而最为
重要的是,它夺走了我的心灵。我每天都在担
心自己的未来和健康。我的前面有许多高山
险阻。
但是,
我要不断地翻越攀登,因为我是为
数不多的幸运儿之一。
我得到了第二次机会,而这并不是人人都能得到的。
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